fuckyeahbadgleefic:

Joyful filled your prompt, the angst is come
But really, there’s no joy,
With rape and drugs, mental health and AIDS
Repeat there is no joy,
Repeat there is no joy,
Repeat, repeat, there is no joy

Let us introduce you to the wonders of Joyful, who has the most ironic name in fandom, aside from hyperemmalawlz.

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So, I just read this, and I have 2 things to say:

1) Joyful is my real name. You can call me Joy, if you want.

2) I laughed my ass off. Because this is 100% true. Before hate drove me off the Internet I wasn’t a good writer, just a prolific one. I’ve gotten better, and I use betas now (yay). I also publish under a completely different penname as a way to escape the wank. But back in the day my writing sucked. I was in a horrible place in my life and all I wrote was angst. And it wasn’t even good angst. It was horrible. But writing is about getting better, right?

So, I have no clue how long ago this was written, I haven’t looked myself up in a very, very long time, for my own mental health. But no hard feelings, guys. My writing was pretty bad.

Hey.

So, I’m delurking for all of 10 minutes to talk about Tumblr user CassieValentine.

I’ve never actually talked to her. I’ve never read her fics or headcanons. While I’m a Castle fan, I’m not active in the fandom. There aren’t many fandoms I’m comfortable being active in anymore. So, I’m not familiar with the caliber of Cassievalentine’s fanworks. I don’t know what she ships, or what tropes she enjoys.

But here’s what I do know:

Some people in the Castle fandom are currently doing to CassieValentine what some people in Glee fandom did to me. They’re ganging up on her, anonymously, sending her hate. They’re even enlisting total strangers to try and drive her out of the fandom. They’re not giving her constructive criticism, they’re insulting her writing and they’re attacking her personally.

THIS IS NOT OKAY.

It wasn’t okay two years ago when I got death threats and “go kill yourself” messages just because people didn’t like my Glee fic, and it’s not okay that it’s happening to Cassie now.

This member our tumblr family is suicidal. Not because of pressures from the outside world, but because of what people within the community are doing to her.

THIS IS NOT OKAY.

So, before I hide back behind my rock and go back to lurking (because the internet hasn’t been safe for me for a long time), I’m gonna say, why don’t you pop over to CassieValentine’s tumblr and give her a hug. ‘Cause God knows she could use some positive messages. When I was going through the worst of it, the occasional positive ask was often the only thing that kept me going.

Fandom is cruel. Fans are cruel. It shouldn’t be that way, but that’s the way it is. If you can survive being in a fandom, you can do anything.

The best of luck to you CassieValentine. If you want to correspond with somebody who knows what you’re going through, feel free to contact me privately.

Shame on you, Castle fandom. Rick Castle and Kate Beckett would be deeply disappointed in you.

So, it’s like, my birthday or something. w00t. Or somesuch. Bring forward the celebratory noms.

I’m still on tumblr and livejournal and youtube and AO3 and everywhere else, I just have an alternate internet identity, and I also lurk a lot.

Unfortunately there’s no real way to announce my alternate screenname to all my casual acquaintances and readers without also announcing it to the bullies and the people who send me hate. Some of them already know, of course, but I’d like to avoid another flood of “go kill yourself” mail if possible.

If you contact me privately I’ll let you know where you can find me now.

I am really sorry about all the fics I will probably never finish. Maybe someday?

glitterdammerung:

Joyful has basically been run out of the Glee fandom and off of her internet identity, which is awful and ridiculous because she’s always struck me as a lovely person who gave hateful people a lot more logic and patience than they deserved.

She wrote ‘Down Where The World Is Ending’ which was the first fic to make me flat out ugly cry. It was beautiful and terrible and it really is just such a well written piece, it’s a crying shame people say such awful things about it.

The great thing about life - what makes it LIFE - is that it IS beautiful and terrible. It’s not a fairy tale. It’s not all candyfloss and gummi bears. But there is, as Imogen Heap says, beauty in the breakdown, and Joy caught the deepest essence of that in DWTWIE, as painful as that was to read. I admire her ability and willingness to chase into the dark corners and emerge with something that is hard to read but is worth the hurt.

Here’s to you, Joy.

I am legitimately crying right now.

Thank you very much for this, really.

I’ve been really depressed.  In fact I’m depressed a lot.  I really, really needed this.

Thanks.

romulusthread:

people who say madge isn’t important

Acey-Gleek-Girl has forbidden me from filling it.

And the first prompt I found was an AU in which Stiles’ mom died of Huntington’s Disease.

Miss your face. :(

Miss you too!